James van der Beek has opened up about two pregnancies losses suffered by him and his wife.
The former “Dawson’s Creek” star and his wife Kimberly – who have children together, Olivia, 11, Joshua, 10, Annabel, eight, Emilia, six, three-year-old Gwendolyn and 10-month-old Jeremiah – have lost two children over three years. Even less and James shared how he began to heal.
She wrote on Instagram: “We just lost a baby 18 weeks into pregnancy and almost lost @vanderkimberly in the process. I had a fast collaboration down south. And I just got kicked out of a reality dancing competition Tha. Favors to win. (I think three of those four are pretty related).”
“So, at the last minute, we rented an #RV, and headed north. No real plans, just day-to-day. Late at night we drove to a quaint little RV park I booked a few hours in advance And got up next to this river.
“And thus began the process – not necessarily of healing – but of being present. Submit to pain. Submit to the beauty that surrounds us. And submit to acceptance of being in a process I don’t understand came.
“2 1/2 years later, after another late pregnancy loss, that project completely exploded after we moved to a new state and got our own RV… Back at the place. With a new baby.
“Reflecting back on that first trip, I wondered how much I didn’t know about the path where I am now… and how much peace I was able to feel in the midst of all that darkness.
“Whatever you are doing…if you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, or even know where to look for it… I invite you to… and take the time to sit right where you are.
“Healing comes at its own pace. Attendance may be just a pre-requisite.”
James, 45, previously revealed that he and his wife weren’t trying for a baby when they were conceiving Jeremiah and were counting their blessings for surprise.
He wrote on Instagram: “Thank God for the surprise. For taking the rounds. For the time being the universe heard my plans and said: ‘Yeah, that’s cute… give it a try’.
“We weren’t trying to have any more kids. We did. But luckily, this chunky little angel knew better.
“And when I hold that, I’m reminded of the benevolent forces out there laughing at my agenda and waiting for an augmented reality to bounce off my “clarity.”
“Thank god for the surprise… and thank god we suck at not getting pregnant.